source: kindle unlimited
rating:★★★★✩
from goodreads:
I can manipulate the emotions of anyone who lets me.
I will make you hurt, make you cry, make you laugh and sigh.
But my words don't affect him. Especially not when I plead for him to leave.
He's always there, watching and waiting.
And I can never look away.
Not when I want him to come closer.
The Shadow
I didn't mean to fall in love.
But now that I have, I can't stay away.
I'm mesmerized by her smile, by her eyes, and the way she moves.
The way she undresses...
I'll keep watching and waiting. Until I can make her mine.
And once she is, I'll never let her go.
Not even when she begs me to.
if i could count the amount of times that i asked myself what the fuck i was reading while reading this book, geeeez. please check the trigger warnings of this one before you read. do not go in blind. your mental health matters!
honestly, this book started off sooooo slow. so slow that i almost stopped reading it. it was very hard to get into, i kept falling asleep while reading and i thought it was because i was tired but no it was super boring in the beginning and then it got juicy. and it kept getting jucier and jucier and then i was hooked.
zade, z, zack, a crazy fucking sweetheart? in a way. the toughest, most perfect physiqued psycho. i guess you should’ve known from his eyes.
z was literally a psycho but it made this book the rollercoaster ride that it was. if it wasn't for his crazy obsessiveness we literally wouldnt have a book to read. i would be terrified of him if i were addie but she was just as crazy as him. he literally dominated everything around him without people even knowing who he was, personally.
adeline, scared at first but secretly loved everything going on. she kind of annoyed me because she swore she hated everything but was lowkey egging him on. love her for trying to stick up for herself with some crazy psycho stalking her but also with her crazy mother. addie liked to have fun and really didn't give a shit about having a stalker until he forced her way into her, literally.
addies mother, i hated her. she reminded me of my mom in a way. everything addie did was wrong if it wasn't up to her perfect mother's standards. i feel like a lot of the reason addie craved the crazy was because her mom drove her insane and lowkey into it all. daya, i love you for being there for addie through all the crazy shit she does. the best best friend a girl could possibly have.
the spice of this book was definitely on 100. probably one of the spiciest i’ve read so far and their relationship-situationship, whatever, made it like 100x100 spicy. but it was also sad and made me feel some things. the suspense of this book was also great, the notes were a gem in this story. haunting adeline turned out to be a great book even though i was slightly bored in the beginning but i stuck through it and im glad i did.
favorite quotes:
"and i will gladly cross every single line if it means making this girl mine."