published: june 1, 2021
source: purchased
rating:★★★★★
rating:★★★★★
from goodreads:
When Liam Cooper's older brother Ethan is killed in a hit-and-run, Liam has to not only learn to face the world without one of the people he loved the most, but also face the fading relationship with his two best friends.
Feeling more alone and isolated than ever, Liam finds themself sharing time with Marcus, Ethan's best friend, and through Marcus, Liam finds the one person that seems to know exactly what they're going through, for the better, and the worse.
This book is about grief. But it's also about why we live. Why we have to keep moving on, and why we should.
my review:
this book, all i can say is wow. i haven’t cried from a book in a long time. this was definitely out of my comfort zone and very different from the things i read but it was so worth the read. this is also my first mason deaver book and i will definitely read more. there’s a lot of triggers in this book, anxiety, grief, death, self harm but nothing too extreme.
the ghosts we keep was very relatable until the very end. definitely can say this hits home. the whole story line kept you interested the whole way through. seeing how people cope with death and go through the grieving process, literally having everything around you flipped upside down. losing friends, relationships with loved ones changing, your own mental health deteriorating, it’s a lot. this book made me want to dabble into more books that tackle tough subjects like mental health.
favorite quotes:
“But now it was clear to me, I didn't belong anywhere; there was nowhere for me to go.”
“I didn't want to die. Not really. What I wanted was to disappear. To blink out of existence, to be forgotten by everyone who ever knew me. I didn't want to be here anymore, to have to think, to have to feel.”
“But knowing what you have to do and actually doing what you need to are two different things, two separate worlds.”
“I’m just so tired,” I told her. “I’m tired of being this way and I’m tired of my brain being broken and I’m tired, Mommy. I’m tired.”